Living is a big word, not in letters, but in meaning, it covers a lot of ground. Living could mean our daily existence, it encompasses location, job, social life, recreation, hobbies, living, even people in our lives - it is how we spend our time. How we 'live' our life.
It's a great time of the year to ask yourself this question, "Am I really happy living the way I do?" and if you're honest, after you look at your life and you look at what is potentially ahead of you in the future, you may be surprised at the results.
Living The So Called Dream.
8 years ago I had everything, from dropping out of school at 16 with nothing. By the time I turned 23 I had a dream car, I had what would be considered a dream home, and I had what may also be considered a dream job - but there was one major issue - it wasn't my dream, it was the dream of society and what I thought I "should" be doing. I actually worked very hard, day in day out working towards what I thought I should be doing instead of considering what I really wanted out of life, or if it was even making me happy.
When I had moments of feeling I wasn't happy I'd put it down to the fact I must have had a bad day, or in some cases, I must be bonkers, because look at everything I had - how is it possible I could not be happy?
You see the problem was, I had an epiphany - where I realised I loved my car, but essentially it was just a lump of metal - how could I possibly, truly love a lump of metal? I loved my home, but it was costing me a fortune to meet the payments so therefore I felt almost bitter towards it, and I loved my job, ummmm actually the only thing I loved about my job was the paycheck at the end of the month. When you sum it all up like that it doesn't sound like much of a dream, does it?
Our existence, our living, our daily life is everything... Are you really happy waiting around for things to come, which may or may not happen - but you give it a chance, you give it hope and you patiently wait for that miracle...
Waiting For A Miracle.
The fact is, I wholeheartedly believe that miracles do happen, I know miracles happen in fact - but I don't like waiting for them, I like to think that everyday, in some way, I am encouraging that miracle a little more, I am making the miracle, not waiting for it.
Life is all about choices, some people are not blessed with the ability to make those choices - some are, which are you? If you ask the question and answer honestly, and the answer is "No, I'm not happy with this..." (even if the people around you think you should be) are you prepared to wait for a possibility of a miracle to change everything, or are you going to start that journey of making one?
Admitting you want something different out of life is only the beginning, finding out what that could be, if you don't already know is a very exciting journey. When I changed my life - I didn't know what I wanted, I only knew what I didn't want, and from there, I used that as a basis to just change the things I no longer wanted to something different, and through trial and error, and more change, I discovered true happiness in the most unlikely of places. You don't always need to know what you want - if you don't know, you begin simply by changing the things that you don't want, one step at a time.
Just think about it... ;-)